Are you a 'people' person?
People I work with, who have known me only a few months, think I'm joking when I say I'm shy. When inside my comfort zone I'm friendly, one might even say personable. My sarcasm is often a self defense mechanism, and yet people take it as humor. Sorry, I'm not that funny. Because of this, I'm often put into the 'spot light' because people think I'm a people person. I'm not. What this does is trigger my anxiety. What people don't see are my frequent trips to the bathroom and my spending a lot of nights not sleeping.
It's not that I think I'm going to self destruct, I'm strong and determined. But, I'm shy. I'd make a great 'people person', but I'm just not one. I wish people could understand, comprehend, that when I say this, I'm not kidding. I'm not trying to be funny. I'm not being sarcastic. The thing is, I like who I am. I'm happy with who I am. I'm genuine, and that's not a common thing among people anymore. If I tell you something, it's true. If I say I love you, I do. If I say I don't care for the person you are, I don't.
Perhaps what I need is tact, because if you ask anyone who knows me, I tend to say what is on my mind. Fortunately, I'm not a mean person, so it's not usually hurtful...unless the truth is hurtful. Even when I say something hurtful, it's said in love; never to be cruel. And yes, I've been known to keep my mouth shut...but you can usually tell that it means you seriously don't want to know what I'm thinking.
I see most of my blog buddies as "people" people. Sometimes you never know, huh?