Is It Any Wonder?
The reason, or one of them, that I'm not a people person is because I'm so shy. It's nearly offensive to me when people tell me that I'm not shy. I don't come off as shy when you meet me, but inside, I'm terribly shy. I may appear to be having a wonderful time in the midst of a large group of people, but I promise you that, chances are, on the inside, I'm wanting to go home. Alone. I've always been this way, and if I hadn't been okay with it, I would have worked on changing it a long time ago. Sometimes I'll meet someone who will be intent on changing me, and if I like them enough, I may travel out of my comfort zone to make them happy, but they shouldn't misinterpret the gesture. I'm traveling for them, but not moving.
I have a very dry and smart ass sense of humor. Sarcasm is a huge turn on for me. I'm not attracted to silliness or people who are constantly 'on'. This probably explains why I have very few close friends, but the ones I have (other than Lisa and Tom) I've had for more than 10 years. My friends are fiercely protective of me. They would do anything for me, and I hope they know how much I love and appreciate them.
I also have a mean temper. I am able to control it so much better than I use to be able to. The benefits of age and medication. :) I do, however, enjoy a good argument. I will never attach myself (again) to someone who can not debate, converse lively, or argue with me. That's just boring, and seriously, I've had enough of that to last me a life time. My boys love to debate, with me, with each other, with anyone. Plus, they have my sense of humor...dangerous combination for teenagers because adults really don't know how to take them. They've never been disrespectful, but it'll come off that way sometimes if someone doesn't know them well.
Somehow, I've managed to roll a dry and sarcastic sense of humor, an up front and in your face argumentative personality and shyness all into one person. Me. Is it any wonder I'm single?