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I'm a single mom with two great kids living near Dallas, Texas. This is my life; day to day things that are probably only important to me. This is my record of my ups, my downs and the road that I've taken along the way. For whatever reason YOU'RE here, I hope you find something you can enjoy and/or relate to. God bless.

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Friday, June 16, 2006

Lessons, Painful...But Worth Learning

I understand that not everyone that reads my blog is a believer, but I've got to post this today as it is related to yesterdays post...and a post from a few days ago.

I'd posted about a friend hurting me. I'm not a 'friendly' person ( and don't waste time telling me that you can't believe it, because, TRUST me, it's true). I don't have enough friends to where I can lose one and it not hurt. But, when this all took place with my friend, my heart hardened. That isn't a good thing. A hardened heart will destroy your spirit without your understanding what's wrong.
A few of my posts were negative, angry. Most of you asked about it, some of you emailed me about it. I thought that I was okay, and that's what I told all of you. I couldn't understand why I felt angry. I began praying about it a few days ago, and God had been waiting on me to turn to Him because in a few seconds flat, the Holy Spirit revealed myself to me and it wasn't a pretty sight.
I was carrying a grudge against my friend, I was holding onto anger and the hostility that came with it was stealing my joy. Truly, stealing my joy. This is what prompted the grace and mercy post from yesterday. I had forgotten that lesson that I tried to instill in my boys. When the veil was torn down, after I had prayed about it and God had revealed to me my mistake, it was like a wonderful down pour of refreshing rain after a months and months of hot sun. This is what I was trying to tell in yesterdays post, that I needed to apologize to my friend for holding her mistake against her. We are all human. We all err. We all put ourselves before others sometimes and sometimes we don't realize how it might hurt someone.
This morning I walked out my front door and there was a beautiful bouquet of flowers and a card from my friend. I didn't open the card, but took them all next door to my friends house and told her how sorry I was that I'd hardened my heart against her. That I loved her and I forgave her and asked her to forgive me. Then I opened the card in front of her. It was a precious heartfelt apology. We cried together and we healed.
If my friend had brought over the flowers and card last week, or anytime before my praying and before God's Holy Spirit had revealed the error of my ways, I'd not been receptive to her apology.
God's timing is PERFECT. This was a lesson I needed to learn. And, regardless of how painful it was for me to learn it...it was something that has taught me something. Actually, taught both my friend and myself an important lesson.
That's it. Love you all. Thanks for bearing with me and loving me. You are all precious to me.


Blogger ~ Amanda X&O said...

Again, wonderful post. I am glad that you and your friend were able to mend your relationship.

1:52 PM  
Blogger Anne said...

That was great kathi..I am really glad that you shared that.

2:46 PM  
Blogger ~Deb said...

That's truly a work of God Kath! I'm very happy to see that you & your friend are back on track. You make a great point---all in God's timing.

4:16 PM  
Blogger Johnnie Avocado said...

Glad to hear that your weight is lifted.

4:58 PM  
Blogger kathi said...

amanda ~ thanks darlin, me too. Honest, thanks for caring.

5:22 PM  
Blogger kathi said...

anne ~ thanks, and sweetie, I'd share anything with you.

deb ~ isn't He just amazing? I mean, really...just blows me away how He will work things out. Charlie is working on your song...this should be fun, and he did like your idea of throwing things at him, LOL. He's not that young!

Johnnie ~ Exactly, that's how it feels. Thank you!

5:25 PM  
Blogger Madelene Rose said...

This is an amazing post! It hits home. I recently went through the same exact thing and turned to God. I am never disappointed :)

This is a heartfelt post. I believe that you are one of the warmest people online, God be my witness. For what its worth, I offer you my friendship :)

6:45 PM  
Blogger DZER said...

beautiful story, darlin' ... you are a wonderful and amazing person. you give me hope in humanity. *hugs*

9:37 PM  
Blogger kathi said...

madelene rose ~ wow, thank you. What a generous and kind offer. I appreciate you very much.

dzer ~ I'm just not use to compliments, I'm overwhelmed here. Thanks you sweet, sweet guy.

10:38 PM  
Blogger Mike said...

Well....I'd walk on water for ya....just saying.

(Of course I may take a precaution...for instance like a life preserver.)

Have a super weekend kathi!

6:24 AM  
Blogger kathi said...

Mike ~ I'd never even ask you to get your feet wet for me, so thank you...just saying. ;)

Hope you have a great weekend, and I hope it WORK FREE!

8:33 AM  
Blogger Shawn said...

Glad everything worked out and you feel restored.

9:41 AM  
Blogger SmileDragon said...

Kathi, ok now missy, I can't keep gettin' all tearey eyed at work!

Another great post!

10:18 AM  
Blogger kathi said...

shawn ~ that's a good way to put it, thanks. Where've you been? Gonna go see if you've posted now, I've been missing you.

crystal ~ I'll send you a box of tissues darlin'. :) Silly girl. Thanks!

12:18 PM  
Blogger Genna said...

Great job, honey. Thank you for sharing this with us. A very important lesson for all of us at one time or another. Those negative feelings can really get in the way of positive ones.


9:30 AM  
Blogger kathi said...

Genna ~ thank you,tis true...they surely do!

12:02 PM  
Blogger Sydney said...

I didn't think that your earlier post(s) was all that horrible. Sometimes feelings are rational and sometimes they aren't but I don't see how you can stop the feelings themselves from happening (umm... if you do figure out how to do that, let me know PLEASE).

A lot of times I too worry about the way I express my feelings and then I have to work through things and either do what you did - come to a point of forgiveness or to a place where I apologize for the manner in which I may have expressed my feelings.

Sometimes I have to do both.
Although with me, unfortunately its usually just the apology thing and the other person has to do the forgiveness. (sighing)

3:46 PM  
Blogger kathi said...

sydney ~ I've made a point of saying I'm sorry as soon as I am. I keep hoping that it'll rub off on my boys, but all the guys in my home find those words hard to say.

4:53 PM  

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