Warning...Warning...

I've had a bad day and the last thing I need is to watch this idiot on Dr. Phil. I've been in a 'pre-prozac' mood all day and you really don't want to make eye contact with me. Just a warning.

I took Charlie to the doctor this morning (waited 50 minutes for the Dr. while he stood outside our room talking to a drug rep) and to the pharmacy (waited 35 minutes), and it honestly didn't improve my mood. (*Charlie is fine, just a bit of a cold like infection that needs antibiotics)

I'm going to go out on a limb here and say that I'm pretty good 350 days a year. Those other 15 days are hell for me and anyone who comes near me. No, they don't deserve it, and neither do I. But, other than burying myself in a hole without the slightest bit of air, I can't keep it from happening. It would be nice if the 15 (give or take) days would be in a row. Mark could just send me away till it was over and we'd all be good. But, it doesn't work that way. And I never know when it'll happen. Yes, I take all my meds. Before medication I was good maybe 50 days out of the year. I've taken prozac since Charlie was 4 years old...so, 11 years. About 6 years ago I had to have an emergency hysterectomy so I also take hormones. (* Another side note...the popular hormone Premarin is made from pregnant mare urine. It's what I was put on first, till I did a study and found out what it was made from and the complete hell that they put female horses through to make this. Pregnant mare farms...do a study, it's nasty and complete animal abuse. Since I refused to take it, they put me on Estradoil, a vegetable based hormone. Go PETA!)

Okay, talking about the ridiculously cruel things people do reminds me of this idiot on Dr. Phil that I started to blog about...an hour ago. I've heard commercials advertising shows discussing 'poly-fidelity' lately. I figure that many people will do most anything they can get away with and this poly-fidelity is just another example of it. It's a 'committed' relationship between a married couple with either another person or another couple. Whatever, whether I approve or not means nothing to anyone but me. This guy on Dr. Phil (which, I rarely watch but since Charlie was home, I was home) had been married to his wife for 20 years, they have 4 kids (from 6 years old to 16 years old) and was probably the most arrogant man I've ever seen. Wait...there was that guy I knew in Muncie...no, the guy today was the most arrogant. He was openly having an affair with a woman that he described (in front of his wife) as the most beautiful woman he'd ever seen, "the kind of woman that makes men fall out of their seats" he said. He'd tried to convince his wife that this other woman could be a help to his wife because she (the wife) has so much to do taking care of their four kids and the house and all...and he has so much energy...see where he's going here?? That his having sex with this other woman would put less pressure on his wife to 'satisfy' him. He said that most countries around the world accept poly-fidelity relationships, and why should he be punished because it isn't accepted here in the states? Oh, hon...you should be punished a whole hell of a lot more than this. And I'm just in the mood to be the one who does it. The entire hour he tried to convince Dr. Phil and the audience how this isn't that big of a deal. Dr. Phil told him he was selfish and arrogant. I don't know if he (Dr. Phil) is always that on target, but he was today. He also asked the wife why she gave this idiot (my pet name for him) power over her life and happiness, and she said she wanted to save her marriage. Me? I'd be making sure this man had one hell of a life insurance policy and then I'd take up brake mechanics as a hobby...