Monday, August 03, 2009

Rock Solid

Every word I said, I meant it. Every time I told you I missed you, it was true. Every time I told you I loved you, my heart was demanding to be heard. I'll never change day to day, week to week or month to month. I am rock solid.

So many times I've walked away because I was too honest to stay. Each time I was able to walk away with my head held high, knowing that I was doing what was right. The alternative held no attraction to me, shame had no hold on me. Still.

I had learned as a child to protect my heart. I had built a wall around it that could not be breached, until you. Make no mistake, you did not find a way in; I gave you entrance. I invited you in. I trusted you...I trusted you.

Every day is a lesson. In life, in love...every day a lesson. I'll take what you have taught me, I hope I'll forget what I've forgiven and I'll remember what my heart is capable of. Although each day changes, people rarely do; and as every day is a lesson, I learned a great deal from you.

As I was before you, as I will be after you, I will forever be true to my heart. Though perfection has never been my strong suit, honesty has been. I am today as I was yesterday, as I was last week and as I was last month, rock solid.

9 comments:

  1. Anonymous1:58 AM

    This is good! It makes me want to dissect it and dig deeper.

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  2. believer ~ thank you. And dissect away, hon, I have no secrets. :)

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  3. I have a friend who is struggling to be true to herself, to protect her heart, while being in a relationship. She is doing well, but her partner doesn't understand the balance of you/me. It's not often easy, is it?

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  4. Damn, Girl! this is good! I feel like this letter belongs in one of those books of famous letters.

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  5. lynilu ~ I started to say that nothing worth it is ever easy...but I'm wondering, if it's real...shouldn't it come naturally...and shouldn't natural be easy? I don't know. Apparently, I don't know. I know I need to be a better judge of character.

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  6. jbt ~ thanks babe. It's from the heart, however broken it may be. But, I'm a survivor, and I do learn my lessons.

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  7. waiting for the sequel, we're hanging

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  8. I really love this. Kathi it read like one of those daily inspirations, I am Rock Solid. Thanks for sharing this. I realize it is about you but your words have reached us all.

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  9. jbt ~ our lives are a sequel.

    rose ~ kind words, thank you.

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